My body is in pain, my back hurts and my head is going to explode... and those are the good news.
All of that, will go away as soon as I have a nice cup of tea and rest.
Now to the real reason why I am so tired: I have been working on the Inner Excavation project with Effy and it is kind of waking up, so many dreams I had, and that I had hidden somewhere in my mind, in my heart, in my soul...
As a child I believed that everything was possible. I thought that I could do anything and I could be whatever I wanted to be. Yes, I noticed, too many I's in the last sentence...
What happened?
Why didn't I follow those dreams?
Is it to late????
Don't get me wrong, I did achieve some dreams, but were those dreams really mine?
I wanted to be an art or literature teacher, instead I am an engineer. I love what I do, but my heart tells me that I would have been happier as a teacher.
I dreamed of having an art studio, today I have a small space in my family room, where I constantly have to move things around in order to make space for new projects. No, I am not happy, but, I am thankful that I have this space.
There are so many things that I haven't done and during this process I've begun to ask myself: Will I ever realize those dreams?
I guess this is a day by day process and the answers will come.
My dreams are here, they are part of me and I will not let them go hiding again.
The inner excavation continues, the self discovery continues... I will find myself.
Hope you like my art journal page. I think and doodle, it is a fun therapy.
Hugs,
Julia
I love your page here, Julia! I am loving Inner Excavation also. I was always such an idealist; trying to recover some of that myself.
ReplyDeleteOh look at this page!! The colors are so vibrant! And I love the form. Thank you for sharing :-)
ReplyDeleteI love your art journal page :) It's awesome. I love the doodling and how it all just seems to fit perfectly... I envy you :) xx
ReplyDeleteI'm only 24 and I have felt the same way about those dreams I had and the fact that I'd let go of so many to settle for less. I'm starting to take back that power and control and I'm doing what makes me feel good now.
Really creative journal. Thanks for posting today.
ReplyDeleteMy art studio is in my bedroom. It isn't perfect, but I'm glad to have it. I didn't follow any of my dreams. I working on that now. I don't think it is too late to start, but I always feel like I'm running behind.
ReplyDeleteWonderful vibrant page! Sending you gentle comforting hugs as you excavate those dreams and bring them into the light.
ReplyDeleteJulia, I love your art journal pages. They are so free and colorful and full of good energy. I have my art area in my family room too. It is a tight squeeze b/c it is a little space with a lot going on in that room. So I know what you feel like when you talk about spaces to create. I think you will find yourself and dream your dreams and do all the things you want to do. To me, that's what the excavation does, it brings up things so you can be and become all the things you desire. Karen
ReplyDeleteI love your page Julia, the colours are beautiful! No - its never too late to follow your dreams! I'm 60 and am just about to start a Masters Degree course in Art Psychotherapy in mid September - part of the ongoing process of finally following my dreams! Namaste.
ReplyDeletethat is a yummy page ... so colorful.
ReplyDeleteI have been contemplating dreams as well
and finding my way to the practice of dreaming and first steps.
I love your honestly. It makes me breathe deeply.
Thank you.
Your journal page is fantastic. I love that kind of art, a doodle that somehow turns into something cohesive. :)
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